For weeks I’ve been rolling around the idea of whether I wanted to compile an end of year post or not. It’s become a little of an annual ritual, I suppose. One that a lot of us bloggers share. I really enjoyed curating last year's wrap up.
So I scrolled through my blog, as I did my digital photo albums. I did my best to dig into my mind's archives, I examined how I felt I embodied my Core Desired Feelings, and I started making very, very long lists of the memorable moments, the milestones, the magic.
And then I leaned back, looked at that list, and thought…
I don’t want to do this.
Not this year.
Gold Coast | Japan | Los Angeles | Mornington Peninsula | Sydney | Melbourne
This year has been gigantic and insular. So out there and so grace-filled and yet, labour-some.
Complex. Delightful. Challenging and fulfilling.
Love has deepened, boundaries have been exercised, a friggen book was launched.
I ‘achieved’ a lot but pulled out of just as much.
I’ve never felt healthier and yet I know that as far as ‘wellness’ goes, I’m only just getting started.
I became a woman this year. In every sense of the word. I grew up. Period.
I’ve laughed the loudest than what I have in the longest time. Mostly at inappropriateness.
I have not stopped swearing. (Or even cut down)
I found Kundalini yoga.
I fell more in love with the women in my life.
Above all, I was, more than ever, grateful...
... and I thought instead of a hefty post, I would share with you how this year has felt to me.
So, in no particular order, let's let a few photos speak what words cannot express...
And so, moving forward?
Let's keep this simple.
My Core Desired Feeling are:
GRACE || LUCIDITY || RIPE
Grace: Feminine | Held | Light | Love | Supported | Inspired | Devotion | Intuition
Lucidity: Killer clarity | Inspiration | Prolific | Authenticity | Vivid | Crystal clear expression | The ability to translate anything into something comprehendible | 3D | Fluid
Ripe: Ready | Now | Juicy | Succulent | Sweet | Not in a hurry - having the patience to ripen | Of the essence | Woman | Embodied
My motto for 2015 will be:
HAVE A CRACK
Speaking gigs | Sobriety | Starting a family
I'm just going to go for it, really. That's all I can do.
And you will too, right? You'll just bloody go for it... because... why not?
Because... that's what we're here to do: we try something, and then we see what happens. And then we gather information and we observe our sensations and then we try again, hopefully learning and growing as we go.
On that note, I hope you can comprehend how much you allow me to both grow and learn in this space. To teach really is to learn -I've realised that more than ever this year, and while I regularly do double takes at my life situation – mostly because I'm so struck with awe – simultaneously, I know it's no accident. When I was eight years old, although I was a little terror, I knew what kind of women I wanted to be. I wanted to help people and be a phenomenal mother and I knew I wanted to be very much in love with the man of my dreams. I knew I was an independent being who craved connection and love – a good combination, I believe.
Check in with yourself. How old were you when you used to dream with no limits about yourself as grown up? What was it that you conjured up in that mystical world,somewhere behind your eyes? Are you living that projection? Are you moving towards it?
I hope that 2015 is a significant year in your life; one that carries you, nurtures you and comes bearing a message that it's safe – that it's right – to follow the whispers of your heart. Please remember that you didn't make the journey down here to be ordinary.
But also, please know, that if at times you forget, I will be right here to remind you of your grace.
I can't imagine a day or a time that I will ever tire of intending to inspire you.
Happy New Year.
PS: I'll be sharing all the fun and groovy ways you can work with me next year in my newsletter this week. (I'll be winding down my 1:1 coaching from mid-year). Subscribe below so you don't miss out of the scoop. xo
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